Tuesday, October 30, 2007

HOPE.........I must rely on others to do what they say.  And HOPE it is in our best interest!

A nurse came yesterday to do an assessment for MOM.  She has paid  huge bills to Lifetime Home Care Insurance and now we will see if we can get some benefits from that insurance.

We were all so tired last night.  Guess the stress of waiting and anticipating is really disabling in some sense.  Mother thought the questions silly and certainly not applicable to her and she was ready for the nurse to leave!  I told her she did great.....she wasn't supposed to know everything and the less she knew the better it was......she laughed and said well it must be good then!

Jack is having some bad days and nights, too.  The trouble is he is letting me sleep and I don't know all that is troubling him.

Sometimes the best part of the day is the walk around the house, carrying a cuddly kitten and looking at the flowers and ignoring the weeds.

Picking up pecans is something I don't like doing but have been picking up a few every day.  Jack is helping shell and we make a real mess on the carpet, glad new carpet is in the future.  The crop is being handled by black crows and me.   I seem to be losing my part of the crop......which I am grateful for.  LOL

Peace.............

Friday, October 26, 2007

ISN'T THIS TRUE!

No one is you.  And that's the problem.  Because if there were more yous, you could do all the work on your list that only you can do.  Since no one is you, though, you'll have to improvise with "them".

This is the horoscope for Libra on October 26, 2007.  I couldn't help but copy it, because it fits me so well!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

 

These cool mornings and crisp breezy days are so welcome after the summer.  Living so many years in California where the seasons are not distinct, having abrupt changes are stimulating!

I have to say first, we have two girls living in California, where the air is brown.  They are using cheese cloth to breath through because there are no painter's masks left in stores.  But they are safe and we thank God for that.  I am personally glad to be far from the fires now, having to be evacuated only once, but that was enough.

The heart doctor examined Jack yesterday and pronounced him doing great!  I think I have been holding my breath for the last month.   I know Jack has been so uneasy and distracted worrying about what the next step would be.  We are grateful to our families and friends who have been there for us during this difficult time.

We have been trying to get some legal work straightened out and wills written.  These are things that responsible people do.  And I hate visits to lawyers as much as I dislike visits to doctors! LOL    I had been to the lawyer and told him the situation and listened to his advise, so he took care of the paper work.  My job was to get Mother and Jack there at the end of a long day. 

All went well except Mother complained she only got to sign papers once!  Jack cut his arm on the door, which was not as wide as some and the threshold was rough and bounced his chair into the edge of the door cutting up his arm!  Of course I had to do first aid before we could even write our names.  Then the exit was about a three inch step which required my getting our extra little things from the van to make up the difference and Jack could have a smooth exit from the office.  I got both back in our "enter van".  The lawyer laughed and said you don't have much to do...do you? 

But this is a good ole boy country lawyer that knows Oklahoma law from many generations of his family being in the law field.  His many stories made the visit much more comfortable and I got a good scolding for asking too many questions before he finished each item of business........I told him I was afraid I would forget some of those questions! 

He just didn't understand how easily it is to get distracted and FORGET those questions!  While writing the check for payment, Mother kept telling me to go see about Jack, he was going outside and might get hurt.......when actually he went into the outer office and was talking to the secretary.  The lawyer was laughing so hard and trying not to!

Well, we got home yesterday after a visit to Sam's Club and the purchase of some big heavy items, which meant I lifted those items into the basket, into the car, into the house, and all of this with a very painful back which is probably due to the stress this last week, raking the yard on a bitter cold morning without a jacket ( but it felt so good!) or just one of those things you do and wonder how it happened.  This required some heavy duty pain med before I could rest last night!

But the fun thing that happened yesterday was.......there was a tap at the door and I was in the floor doing Jack's legs and we said come in...but I had hooked the screen, so I had to get up and go to the door.  The lady was not familiar to me until she said, "I am Ditty".  I had not seen her I am sure since my dad died in '62.  We had a great visit.  She is a cousin in name only but certainly in heart.

Before we left for the doctor's visit yesterday, I received a call from a cousin I had not seen  for probably the same length of time, but had kept up other ways through the family.   She said they were concerned because there were no entries for quite sometime in another journal that I use!  I can't believe all of this happened  in one day!

Well, dear friends it is almost 5:30....I fed the four legged, furry, feline friends at 4! Made the coffee and am relaxing but should get the day started!

Take care..... and Peace reigns at the moment at Marigold Country Home.........and we added bright orange Mums to the flower beds yesterday.  My neighbor who helps me with house work also does things in the yard!   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Fall approaches

Cool days and nights, leaves scattered everywhere, and time seems to slow down!

Happy October!

Monday, October 8, 2007

Birthday or antiversary?

Thursday morning before lunch my daughter just walked into the house!

A surprise that overwhelmed me!

I had not felt really great, very serious chills at night, no energy, I was exhausted and stressed out.  I guess I was closer to the end of my rope than I really thought!  Anyway, with lots of pampering, good food, and orders to rest, I am feeling much better.  My daughter goes home tomorrow and I will have to go through withdrawl for sure! lol

Other wise there have been a couple more crisis but we have survived.  In our household we seem to generate crisis on a regular basis.   My daughter had a change to meet the doctor and to exchange views with him about her grandmother.  That was a good thing! 

Hope all of you have as good a big 70 birthday as I did yesterday.  Yes, it was a milestone.  On the 50th I was in the Bahamas, this was different and wonderful and definately what I needed!

Peace!

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

A summer thunder and lightening display passed through and left a bit of rain. 

The kittens were not sure if the raindrops were for play or not..........but after they were thoroughly soaked, they retreated to shelter.

Mom was frightened and went to the garage and brought in the cat, saying the cat was frightened, too.   When the storm passed, the cat went back to the garage, and mom to bed hopefully convienced that it was not time to get up! (9pm)

And here am I sitting thinking about the changes in the last two years.  Mom's physical and mental decline, Jack's heart attack, my several broken bones (toe,foot,and ribs) and wondering  at the changes coming so rapidly.

How could I have survived all the changes in moving, changing doctors, emergency rooms, and trying to create a place for Jack and I.  It has only been possible because of friends, we have no relatives here.  My daughter is in contact with me daily and her support and encouragment have been beyond price.  I am grateful for each day that ends peacefully. 

 And that peace has to come from within me.